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Where to begin …

Im only writing because i need to vent before it gets to be to much to handle. Life has changed for me so quickly in the past 5 months! I have a new best friend:) and he is legit like 75% just like my old best friend Jesse just without the drama and some other minor things. I have never needed someone like i need him though thats whats different and thats what im not comfortable with. i dislike when someone has that kinda power over me emotionally. obviously he’ll never know that even if we do share everything but the whole idea that i know really doesnt sit well with me. I finally let go of Paul, we still talk though and i assume he still thinks were talking. Im not ready to be a stepmom at all and i know eventually it was going to get to that point. Its sad but for me its the best decision i could make…

Yessica Melanie Laura and Amanda are good. I honestly only see Yessica and Amanda sometimes and its Rare when i see Melanie. Im ok with it though im more determined in gettin mine than friends right now and the beauty of our friendship allows us to have some time apart. I really just miss Laura the most (Iowa is too far and i want her home!) im so glad shell be home for summer :) especially since ill have a pool for us to all hangout in on the daily.

I graduate in year! that im super excited for:) I didnt think it was gonna be this soon but im so relieved that it is. College is stressful and im excited to start my life; to be successful with a great support system with someone by my side and hopefully have a baby by the time im 25. i know that sounds like a lot but im so ready for this as long as i stay focused i know i can accomplish anything. Ill be moving out in August if all goes as planned. Ill have roommates tho (my best friend and some guy named Ant and some chic) i dont mind tho as long as they keep shit clean! I swear me and my best friend have been planning our life alot lately i guess thats what has me so pumped.

I got a new car finally :) white little egg car and i love it. Its a damn good upgrade to what i used to have lol but my goal is a charger and I WILL eventually get it. My sorority is my rock lately i used to think so different of these groups but KDChi completely changed my mind set i swear ive never had such a good support system in my life. hopefully we recruit good ladies next semester to add to our 12 girl organization lol.

I love all these changes happening… Some have been a little rough that i didnt mention but for the most part im enjoying growing up. I hope everyone else is having good days as well :)

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